I
was fortunate enough to see retweets of Scott Morgan (@write_hook) floating
through my Twitter stream some fine day in the past twelve months as I was
wrestling with another bout of writer angst. I was instantly energized to get
back in the game.
Scott
and I have swapped blogs this week. Scott’s blog – Write Hook: Write for the Jugular – provides
great counsel to, from, and for professional writers. That said, I have yet to
read a post that would not be of benefit to anyone who seeks to improve their
facility with the written word. Check him out.
For All Nine, Scott shares what stirs him about Rudyard Kipling’s If.
If
Only ...
When
it comes to the written word, there are exactly two pieces of writing that give
me the chills. One is The Letter To Mrs. Bixby, written by President
Lincoln during the Civil War. The other is Rudyard Kipling's If.
The
funny thing is that unlike President Lincoln, Rudyard Kipling never wrote
another thing I like. Kipling wrote volumes and volumes of poems and stories
and books in addition to If, and not one of them sticks in my head, nor
means a thing. To this day, I read If and it moves me to tears.
The
truly infuriating thing is that the poem is so good, the only way to describe
it with any justice is to use hackneyed twaddle that any frustrated high school
sophomore would use to tell a girl that he would die for her. So forgive me if
I sound trite. The very totality of this poem makes it impossible to narrow it down
to anything as simple is "I loved your opening line."
Perhaps
the wisdom of If is a reflection of Kipling's age when he wrote it.
Perhaps my growing fondness for it is a reflection of my aging self as well.
I'm well past my 20s (and somewhat past my 30s), and as the realities of the
world and making my way through it have scrubbed the shine off my dewy youthful
optimism, the delicacy with which Kipling explains the price of adulthood is
staggering.
The
truly sublime thing about this poem is that it is always best in your own
voice, in your own head. I've read If a thousand times, but I have never
heard it recited particularly well. To me this is the zenith of the written
word, the intersection of the universal and the personal. Countless men (more
so than women, I have found) internalize this poem and commit all 32 lines to
memory. And yet each hears it differently. Experiences it differently. Responds
to it differently.
If
is magic. In it is the secret of life; the voice of the common man, and the
voice of God. It is the universe, in all its aged wisdom and the promise of new
life. It is a guide path through the morass; a map that can be referenced any
time, from anywhere, that always leads me to safety. And that place of safety
is always within myself.
To
say that I aspire to write this well is to say that I aspire to breathe and
laugh and love. And yet I take comfort from the fact that I never could. I do
not compare myself to Rudyard Kipling, as a writer or a sage. And, in truth, I
don't really want to write a poem like If.
But
what If gives me to aim for is the unreachable ideal. The drive to
connect, to resonate. The desire to leave this world with something that says
"I was here. And it mattered that I was."
And
if I can smile as my hopes for transcendence come to nothing, I will
have lived up to the ideal that If lays out. It's a tall order for sure.
But would it be worth it if it were any other way?
Thanks for introducing me to the first poem to fill me with goose bumps in quite a few years...
ReplyDeleteThe best compliment I can give you, Scott, is to say I just downloaded "If" and am going to read it as soon as I am done making this comment. Great post. This is what guest blogging is all about. (Thanks for having him, Kelly.)
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